It’s been fucking rough these last few months. I barely eat. I barely go out. I barely do anything. I just can’t seem to get happy.
My eating habits have been so bad lately that my lips and hands are turning blue due to lack of circulation. I’m having my heart monitored, lots of blood work and my chest x-rayed and yet I can’t bring myself to tell my doctor the truth. I absolutely hate how I look and won’t stop until I’m skinny enough.
I know i need help but I just can’t fucking ask for it.